Sunday, March 20, 2011

Hold on to what’s beautiful

I have learned that at the end of any given day, I can only hold on to so much. I hope I am learning to hold on to only what is beautiful. But it will take a bit more work.

When I have a day of experiences that dredge emotional crap from the bottom of my soul (defined here as the essence of who I believe myself to be), I am sometimes tempted to filter through the muck that has surfaced. I guess I want to search for explanations, to examine the mire’s contents and identify – if possible – what has caused the pain, anger, grief, hurt or frustration.

I know this pain
Why do lock yourself up in these chains?
No one can change your life except for you
Don't ever let anyone step all over you

I appreciate the imagery of a self-created “pain chain” found in the lyrics that Chynna Phillips, Glen Ballard and Carnie Wilson penned for Wilson Phillips’ 1990 debut song, “Hold On.” And as they point out, no one else should be blamed for my unwillingness to change my life circumstances.

You could sustain
Or are you comfortable with the pain?
You've got no one to blame for your unhappiness…
Don't you think it's worth your time
To change your mind?

Basically, the cause of my pain doesn’t get to be the reason I choose to remain in a mired condition. Healing must take place. I must shake off the dredged up crap of life and move in the direction of wholeness. It is the way to happiness. The task is to hold on – day by day – until I break free.

I know that there is pain
But you hold on for one more day
And you break free from the chains

Thank you, Carnie, Wendy and Chynna. At the end of this day, I plan to reflect only on what is good, pleasing, and commendable. Anything else seems a waste of time – a waste of life itself. Besides, I think the chain gang will do just fine without me.

Finally, beloved, whatever is true, whatever is honorable, whatever is just, whatever is pure, whatever is pleasing, whatever is commendable, if there is any excellence and if there is anything worthy of praise, think about these things. (Philippians 4:8, NRSV)

May it indeed be so.


C H A S E said...

Thanks so much for sharing this, Joy! I often need reminding to step back and reflect upon the good in my life, and in this life we get to live and share.

Somedays seem easier than others to break free from the chains. For at least a bit. I am starting to realize how often I chain myself up again, and how easy it is to do so.

There are many toxins surrounding my every day. Those people, situations, things, circumstances that are poison to my heart and soul. If I choose to let them be.

Although I was quite distracted by the awesomeness of the video you attached, closing my eyes and listening to the lyrics was healing. :) Thank you!

All we can do is hold on for one more day, Joy! Hold on! Beauty is and always will be.

Joy said...

Thanks, Chase! As you so often remind: Love life!